To Support Your Determination

Again, I do not know whether this is for the umpteenth time, I woke up late; it was extremely late. Even much worse, I found the bathroom was being used by my sister; she was washing clothes. Instead of taking wudhu and performing a very late shubuh prayer, I had to wait about almost a half hour until the bathroom empty. Even though I had to wait, I finally took a bath and performed the late shubuh prayer. By the time I had breakfast, I had remembered something forgotten. I should have been in campus because a meeting, that I was being involved in, was going. I just could eat my favorite fried rice more quickly; I was being chased by time.

I rode my motorcycle fast in pretty crowded main road and hoped that I was not too late for the meeting. Fortunately, I was getting in the room which was being used for the meeting at the time our honorable advisor preached to all people there. It was still one of the opening parts of the meeting. I entered the room while I was holding shame in my heart.

I could not concentrate my mind at all; the drowsiness was burdening at all parts of me. Instead of focusing and comprehending the meeting, I could only stoop my body forward and lower to the floor. I was so exhausted and it might be because I went to bed too late; I went to bed at 3:30 this dawn. It was a reasonable reason for what I have experienced.

Exactly, I have put strong determination in the deepest part of my heart, but it seems that the strong will, the determination, is not enough to help me to fulfill what I have intended to do or to get. Another thing that I and probably you must have in our selves what called discipline. With discipline in mind and heart, I could have controlled myself in order to fulfill what I want.